Childhood-Story:
1947
Donnie Goode eats worms.
Once, I ask him to do it.
He does. . I'm heart-sick. . Never again.
Bill Dane
Childhood-Story:
1949 "The Spanking"
Can't remember what I did.
He tells me to lie on my bed.
Picks the bench up over his head.
Hits me three times on my butt.
I call him a bastard and try squeezing-hard not to cry.
Bill Dane
Today is Monday, September 29, 2009
Nick and I really ''finished'' the Website
Let down comin' ?!.
We'll just ease on down the line . . .

and go tweak it again
Bill Dane
I hear:
Your group could start on the top floor
and my group could start on the bottom, ..or. ...
Bill Dane
Vietnam and into our future:
No Draft = More Wars.
Ironic.
Norman Mailer knew it then !
Bill Dane
I hear:... He thought it was a little bit mo' down than it was ...
Bill Dane
I hear:
You're makin' me hit people with this
Bill Dane
Childhood-Story:
1940s SilverPines Camp and Sleep-Overs
It's not fun if you wet your bed.
Camp, at night and in the morning, goes real badly.

Cabin-Buddy. Heine Kuechler's compassion saves two summers:
"Don't worry, Billy.. We'll just hang it up to dry"
And we hang it up a lot.
In 7th grade I stay awake all night at Cutler's to escape the demon.
The father leaves our house - the demon goes with.
Bill Dane
I hear:
... Pretty soon there 'r frogs everywhere ...
Bill Dane
Childhood-Story:
1945 Frankie's Accident
I'm playing in the backyard.
Frank is 5, takes my bike and rides off around the corner.
People are yelling and hollering.
We run down the block to find him lying in the street.
All our neighbors are there.
My father screams at me , "Go home Billy. Go home. Get out of here."
Two weeks later Frank comes out of the coma.
I teach him how to walk and talk again.
I don't remember the father being there.
Bill Dane
I hear:
... she has a 2 year old biting, biting, biting
the shit out of his big sister ...
Bill Dane
Childhood-Story:
1938-2010
I stop wetting my bed the day he leaves for sure.
He has another family and a daughter.
I am "estranged" from my father real early.
Why else do I block, put-out-of-my-mind
and find stored way beyond everyday retrieving
the fact that my half sister Sarah is murdered.

Bill Dane
BECKETT:
" ... after long vain reckonings the head falls back among the data."
from "Mercier and Camier"
Bill Dane
Childhood-Story:
1944 Turf stuff
We chase a kid who bikes into our neighborhood.
He's riding frantically fast - hit by a car at the corner - broken leg.
I meet him later in the year, by accident, and apologize.
Bill Dane
I hear:
Stand back, Sweetie. I can't see the ...
Bill Dane
Childhood-Story:"The fickle finger of fate
The moving finger writes
And having writ moves on"Our wee boy band of jr high friends

starts saying this to each other in 1950
when life deals us a perceived shit blow.

Bill Dane