I hear:... that should answer the question,
'You don't know what you're talking about'.
Tell them I'll be there.
'You don't know what you're talking about'.
Tell them I'll be there.
Sorry
I drag along similar defects
Like.. tremors
Like . anxiety
Like . mouth out front
Like . thinking is so hard
I drag along similar defects
Like.. tremors
Like . anxiety
Like . mouth out front
Like . thinking is so hard
It will be noted:They died in their sleep
Like they lived
Like they lived
Happy Birthday Nancy
Thank You !
"The sanest one of all ", MDD
Thank You !
"The sanest one of all ", MDD
The SUV pulls into the bottom of my big-window-view on the Pacific
Obliterating a 1/16" x 3/8" piece of my 'transcending'
I'm annoyed and anxious for some minutes
Soon enough - this truck is my just-fine-anchor
Obliterating a 1/16" x 3/8" piece of my 'transcending'
I'm annoyed and anxious for some minutes
Soon enough - this truck is my just-fine-anchor
I hear:
Even in the short term you have to make value judgements ...
I hear:
I've been all over the place, ya know ...
There's change to be done everywhere ...
I hear:
Get over here !
Even in the short term you have to make value judgements ...
I hear:
I've been all over the place, ya know ...
There's change to be done everywhere ...
I hear:
Get over here !
I hear:
Everything I do is wrong... Everything I do is wrong....Everything ... right ?!
Everything I do is wrong... Everything I do is wrong....Everything ... right ?!
Self-Worth #1s
Freedom to Sex
Sexual Control
Sexual Know
Able To Partner
Able To Partner
Childhood-Story:
From age 3 - at bedtime - I tell Monet stories from my childhood.
I ask her what age she wants me to be in the story - then I remember.
"5". .1943, .OK. .
Mom has the measles. She has red spots all over her body.
The Doctor comes; she must stay in the dark, be taken care of, and
she will be fine.I bring Edie grapefruit for 3 days.
From age 3 - at bedtime - I tell Monet stories from my childhood.
I ask her what age she wants me to be in the story - then I remember.
"5". .1943, .OK. .
Mom has the measles. She has red spots all over her body.
The Doctor comes; she must stay in the dark, be taken care of, and
she will be fine.I bring Edie grapefruit for 3 days.
I hear:
I like it when it's clean over here too.
I like it when it's clean over here too.
Childhood-Story:
Best-Sleep-Walking .1950
Our rooms are separated from the house and separated by a bathroom.
Frankie wakes me up, "What are you doing ?!"
I'm standing in his closet peeing into his shoes.
Best-Sleep-Walking .1950
Our rooms are separated from the house and separated by a bathroom.
Frankie wakes me up, "What are you doing ?!"
I'm standing in his closet peeing into his shoes.
I hear:
Well, your psychiatrist called and asked questions.
Well, she wants to know if you're still hearing voices.
I told ...
Well, your psychiatrist called and asked questions.
Well, she wants to know if you're still hearing voices.
I told ...
? Phillip Glass and his Baroqueness, 1600-1750 ?
Phillip Glass' AncestorsLiving in the Venetian Ghetto, someway
Assimilating Vivaldi-Corelli-Albinoni-et al.
Perhaps finding Handel somewhere in
Germany or Italy or England.
Certainly. someway. cohabiting with JS Bach.
Magic all around.
Phillip Glass' AncestorsLiving in the Venetian Ghetto, someway
Assimilating Vivaldi-Corelli-Albinoni-et al.
Perhaps finding Handel somewhere in
Germany or Italy or England.
Certainly. someway. cohabiting with JS Bach.
Magic all around.
Growing up in Ojai at Thacher, Mom and her cousins do
horse-camping over the mountains into The Sespe.
Looking for warm a Diamondback shows up in Edie's bag.
Edie is in it.No coil .. No strike !
Last night a slug moves into our inlaw-rental.. dust-panned !
horse-camping over the mountains into The Sespe.
Looking for warm a Diamondback shows up in Edie's bag.
Edie is in it.No coil .. No strike !
Last night a slug moves into our inlaw-rental.. dust-panned !
1959 Mt Meisner, near Eschwege, Germany
We lived as an Army pod in their countryside.
No wonder they went along !
We lived as an Army pod in their countryside.
No wonder they went along !
Wonderful New Tenant:
First-'Reported'-Slug-Inside-The-Castle-In-25-Years ! .You da Man, A ! .And da Man, not picky-squeamish, .will receive extra attention! .With a Smile, Dude - You deserve it! .Slugo is poison - don't wanna compromise other aspects of your life. I put some outta your reach - rt of sink, way back & across 'front' door way. .Keep slippers n flip-flops handy - slide feet ? - night light ? - call kinglette! .Singing, "WE SHALL OVER...THIS GET TOGETHER" ! .A, If you get back at a decent hour, 8 - 11pm and are in your usual Socialist-Sci-Guy-Mood : summon me - I bring treasure ! 5 mins ! .(In any event, no offense taken here with 'no summons'! . Another kludgin' time !) Rest up, A.. An eventful night w/o contact-lenes in the offing (of slugs), .Bill
First-'Reported'-Slug-Inside-The-Castle-In-25-Years ! .You da Man, A ! .And da Man, not picky-squeamish, .will receive extra attention! .With a Smile, Dude - You deserve it! .Slugo is poison - don't wanna compromise other aspects of your life. I put some outta your reach - rt of sink, way back & across 'front' door way. .Keep slippers n flip-flops handy - slide feet ? - night light ? - call kinglette! .Singing, "WE SHALL OVER...THIS GET TOGETHER" ! .A, If you get back at a decent hour, 8 - 11pm and are in your usual Socialist-Sci-Guy-Mood : summon me - I bring treasure ! 5 mins ! .(In any event, no offense taken here with 'no summons'! . Another kludgin' time !) Rest up, A.. An eventful night w/o contact-lenes in the offing (of slugs), .Bill
I log:
Tar-driftwood-stones-seaweed-sand-shells-shorebirds-crabs-starfish-and then in order of find with No Duplications Allowed:."Keep Out" buoy, stingray carcass, dead seal, tennis ball, Bud beer can, chunk of foam, seagull wing, bright green cloth entangled in silver cable, huge crab claw, feather, bamboo stick, rusty pipe in 3' concrete block, crushed plastic coated wire cylinder, 1/2 gal plastic bottle, pink foam flip-flop, 5" x 9' black rubber banding, lizard, pine cone, film canister, 5" pink plastic tube heart, palm branch, 10' rusty 4"diameter pipe with a pointed end, 11' rusty steel girder, 2' diameter stone model of 'Stonehenge', apple core, 3/4 of a Rt. b&w Nike, 17" of motorbike tire, toy tire wheel, 1' scrap of naugahyde boat cover, 2" x 1" x 9" plastic box, fiberglass surfboard fragment, bottom only of a 20" fisherman's boot, 5' x 6' piece of jagged tar paper, 750ml Bacardi bottle, 5' nasty carpet bundle, plaid shirt fragment in wire mesh, red plastic comb w/handle, piece of gray plastic trashcan lid, 7' fragment of black felt, yellow Bic lighter, 6" yellow toy shovel, yellow plastic rope mess, 4' x 5' x 2' crab trap, 3' black rubber hose, left med gray fabric glove, rt leg of blue pants, used napkin, pink plastic bubble blower, pelican carcass, piece of white pom pom, Starbucks big cup, tin foil clump, airless red balloon, green stuff in a 1qt Bell jar, orange peel, rusty linkchain between 4' rusty posts, real big tractor tire, 3' concrete chunk w/embedded rebar, tangle of hemp rope around 2' white plastic pipe, real neatly stacked dog shit, 12' x 12' concrete slab w/3' pipe hole dated 1927, 'rescued' n happy: 3 Great Danes & a huge deaf white Pitbull, tied off green plastic bag w/dogshit?, baby seal seemingly almost dead-just croaked at me-what to do at 11:30AM -nature- 5:30 PM gone after high tide, Dragon graffiti on sea wall (there since at least '79), cartilage, umbrellas, 9 surfers: some old guys-women-Latinos-yes!, diving pelican, orange coral, big conch filled with tar. And folks, I've been on this beach since 1942, never before: for 5 days - at different times- this, 'back n forth, whirling and twirling, up n down the beach, non stop, amazing dancing woman !' Rincon Point, Carpenteria
Tar-driftwood-stones-seaweed-sand-shells-shorebirds-crabs-starfish-and then in order of find with No Duplications Allowed:."Keep Out" buoy, stingray carcass, dead seal, tennis ball, Bud beer can, chunk of foam, seagull wing, bright green cloth entangled in silver cable, huge crab claw, feather, bamboo stick, rusty pipe in 3' concrete block, crushed plastic coated wire cylinder, 1/2 gal plastic bottle, pink foam flip-flop, 5" x 9' black rubber banding, lizard, pine cone, film canister, 5" pink plastic tube heart, palm branch, 10' rusty 4"diameter pipe with a pointed end, 11' rusty steel girder, 2' diameter stone model of 'Stonehenge', apple core, 3/4 of a Rt. b&w Nike, 17" of motorbike tire, toy tire wheel, 1' scrap of naugahyde boat cover, 2" x 1" x 9" plastic box, fiberglass surfboard fragment, bottom only of a 20" fisherman's boot, 5' x 6' piece of jagged tar paper, 750ml Bacardi bottle, 5' nasty carpet bundle, plaid shirt fragment in wire mesh, red plastic comb w/handle, piece of gray plastic trashcan lid, 7' fragment of black felt, yellow Bic lighter, 6" yellow toy shovel, yellow plastic rope mess, 4' x 5' x 2' crab trap, 3' black rubber hose, left med gray fabric glove, rt leg of blue pants, used napkin, pink plastic bubble blower, pelican carcass, piece of white pom pom, Starbucks big cup, tin foil clump, airless red balloon, green stuff in a 1qt Bell jar, orange peel, rusty linkchain between 4' rusty posts, real big tractor tire, 3' concrete chunk w/embedded rebar, tangle of hemp rope around 2' white plastic pipe, real neatly stacked dog shit, 12' x 12' concrete slab w/3' pipe hole dated 1927, 'rescued' n happy: 3 Great Danes & a huge deaf white Pitbull, tied off green plastic bag w/dogshit?, baby seal seemingly almost dead-just croaked at me-what to do at 11:30AM -nature- 5:30 PM gone after high tide, Dragon graffiti on sea wall (there since at least '79), cartilage, umbrellas, 9 surfers: some old guys-women-Latinos-yes!, diving pelican, orange coral, big conch filled with tar. And folks, I've been on this beach since 1942, never before: for 5 days - at different times- this, 'back n forth, whirling and twirling, up n down the beach, non stop, amazing dancing woman !' Rincon Point, Carpenteria
Happy Birthday MonetThirty Five Years Gift
For Us !
For Us !
Childhood-Story:
1944, I'm 7 - It could be A. Phillip Randolf himself !Mom takes Frankie and me on the train from LA to Boston.
Black men help us.
Sleeping car sleeping ! White table cloth dining, silverware, water.
Men in military uniform drinking and smoking in special cars - I roam and spy.
He gives me a stick of real Wrigley's Spearmint Gum. I know the War.
Then to Kennebunkport, Maine, to stay at the Dane 'beach house'.
The Atlantic Ocean is chopping-splashing. It will let us swim, "Watch it !"
I am more than free to climb the rocks, find friends, fish , eat hot dogs.
It goes hours without seeing a relative. We smoke coffee in straws.
Pinball machines are big-color-fantasy. We row boats, crawl the sand.
A bandaid does for my palm what 15 stitches should. It still looks nasty-good !
1944, I'm 7 - It could be A. Phillip Randolf himself !Mom takes Frankie and me on the train from LA to Boston.
Black men help us.
Sleeping car sleeping ! White table cloth dining, silverware, water.
Men in military uniform drinking and smoking in special cars - I roam and spy.
He gives me a stick of real Wrigley's Spearmint Gum. I know the War.
Then to Kennebunkport, Maine, to stay at the Dane 'beach house'.
The Atlantic Ocean is chopping-splashing. It will let us swim, "Watch it !"
I am more than free to climb the rocks, find friends, fish , eat hot dogs.
It goes hours without seeing a relative. We smoke coffee in straws.
Pinball machines are big-color-fantasy. We row boats, crawl the sand.
A bandaid does for my palm what 15 stitches should. It still looks nasty-good !