Capitalism Produces and Distributes  Death and Destruction

I wish I were more wicked than capitalism​ 

As wicked as I believe I want to be​ 

Intellect  memory  wit  heart

Attempting to be  kind  truthful  just   in the tangle of nature-nurture

Have a headache   sit-stand-walk spine-straight   what

Needs   from each  to each      even brief chats covered

can't know the winds that blow in you - Bamsi

hope every body gets a size that works

Know where we are   ...it's amazing.

Eco-Socialism For Now and the Future - Albritton

you will get down as the whitey funk bohemian marxist+ bruhster of our 2 li'l centuries
i will never come up

may your billions seed a great global-eco-socialist resurrection   care and share

1949 water  I see the creek pool clear   willow pole  7 foot leader  black-nat floating on the mirror   7 inch rainbow bite and wiggle    sobbing

in the spirit of Jewish Jesus w Muslim cousins  y Buddha  Allah  et al   cool Folks w Ethos

let's lie down    now what

Early ‘90s  I was told to read "Continental Divide"
then red everything he wrote in published order 
town   folks  snow  ice  death
Dane Banks happens    why wouldn't it

Russel Banks was for me
my English teacher friend had him come to his seniors' class in '97
he told me after
I was fucking in class
he did not invite us
Good luck for all of us

"The fickle finger of fate
The moving finger writes
And having writ moves on"

jr high friends start saying this to each other in 1950s when life deals us a perceived shit blow

+- 2009, college and care.
I'm suffering from "Early Onset Parsimony", see:
"Contagious ! The Common Man's College Loan & Health Care Syndromes, Etc !"
Not covered by this criminal nation's non systems for citizen care.
Puke at will !

I hear:
... sex ? Are you sure they live like that ?
Maybe most people do ...

Childhood-Story:
1949-50 two, six week summers at Silver Pines Camp, 30 miles east of Redding
First summer I don't pay much attention to the Silver Belt Buckle competition.
We collect points for every kind of 'sporting' event over the summer.
We fish, swim, shoot, horse, clean, and big-points! = find an Indian Arrowhead.
Second summer,
I know I can win it if I find an arrowhead in the final days - our totals are posted.
There's a small small lake half a mile over the hill. I get permission to hike over.
Lost Lake is 100 yards long rock-stone shore the length - other side, banks.
I .hands-n-knees. back-n-forth . for three hot-dry hours.
This feeling of "I'm-gonna-find-it" has been with me since '38. I know it well.
Just have to keep on Truckin'.
Hour number four I find my no-doubt Indian Arrowhead.
Two and a half inches, brown-gray, shallow-notched-sculpted to it's point.

Two times I lie face down and cry out loud at my camp:
Alone in the woods, stick-leader-fly-cool-mossy-creekside - my first fish
Alone in the rocks and stones with the Arrowhead

Walked and hunted for three hours today
Not one single picture taken
This has happened before
Like two days ago
It's always exercise

I hear:
... She's ballin' him right now ...

I hear:
... four years ago I woulda gone back and burned the house down.
Not anymore.

APPROPRIATION​ - my Buddy !
I know people who Wikipedia: appropriation